The Way I Used To Be by Amber Smith (Book Review/Thoughts)

I LIKED/DISLIKED IT……….if that makes any sense.

 The unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.
Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn’t change who she was. But the night her brother’s best friend rapes her, Eden’s world capsizes.
What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved—who she once loved—she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she’s supposed to tell someone what happened but she can’t. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts—freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year—this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman’s strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, and while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.

*Not a plot based review – just general thoughts*

Dealing with any story premised upon RAPE is a tough job any day.
I am still not sure if i liked the book or disliked it.
I was left with so many emotions….
so many questions…
and so many thoughts to ponder upon…

There were times when i fully supported the protagonist and times when i wanted to hit her head and ask her to wake up but then again not being in her shoes,…… would my opinion or perspective really matter?

I LOVED the writing style and the flow of the story for sure.
And i most certainly, don’t hate the book……….But i am just not able to put a label on how i felt about the book. I guess you could call it a nice but one-time-read.
It’s one of those books which you read, which made you think, but that is the end of it. You dont come back to it later or remember it in future.

I guess that is what was disappointing for me.
Taking such a delicate but prevalent issue as major plot theme and having almost all ingredients right, still couldn’t leave a lasting impression.

Star rating: 3/5!


Happy reading 😀

The Cruel Prince by Holly Black (Book Review)

Series: The Folk of the Air-#1

Blurb:Jude was seven years old when her parents were murdered and she and her two sisters were stolen away to live in the treacherous High Court of Faerie. Ten years later, Jude wants nothing more than to belong there, despite her mortality. But many of the fey despise humans. Especially Prince Cardan, the youngest and wickedest son of the High King.
To win a place at the Court, she must defy him–and face the consequences.
In doing so, she becomes embroiled in palace intrigues and deceptions, discovering her own capacity for bloodshed. But as civil war threatens to drown the Courts of Faerie in violence, Jude will need to risk her life in a dangerous alliance to save her sisters, and Faerie itself. 

This was my most anticipated release for january 2018 and it not only lived upto its expectation but also entered 2018 favourites!

Semi spoilers below. Skip to ‘Characters’ to avoid minor spoilers.

*Semi Spoiler Start*

Plot: The story revoleves around Jude and her quest to find her place in the land of faeries. Her life was uprooted from human world and she was placed in the fey world by the murderer of her parents at the age of seven. Since then its been 10 years now and she had adjusted and truly believes that fey world is where she belongs. Though she never lets go of her hate, for the murderer, she lets him train her and learn as much as she can to join the royal court as a knight. She has been constantly bullied by the youngest crown prince, Cardan, but she fights back because she does not see herself below the fey people. On the way she gets hired by the next ‘to-be’ high king as a his spy and does his work in exchange for a ‘geas’ which protects her from any sort of enchantment from the fey. But in turn of events the ‘to-be’ high king and most of the crown family is murdered by his own elder brother Baelkin, who wants the throne for himself and he needs the youngest crown prince Cardan to do so. Now, in a round about way, the power to choose the next high king lies in Judes hand. What will she do next!….Well that you have to read and find out!

*Semi Spoiler Ends*


  • Jude: The strong female protagonists whose ultimate fear is to loose control over herself under the fey charms/magic. She has a twin sister Taryn, who betrays her and a half fey sister Vivi who is loyal to her. She has a hate relationship with Cardan which turns to camaraderie by the end of book 1. The book is from her POV.
  • Cardan: He is the youngest crown prince known to be useless and a bully amongst the fey people. He secretly likes Jude but doesn’t want to, so he tries everything possible to make her hate him, including endless bullying, but he stops anyone else from doing anything fatally harmful to her. He has a big role to play in deciding the future of the next high king. He is being physically abused by his eldest brother Baelkin for the longest time but no one knows about it.
  • Madoc: Kings general. He falls in love with a human and fathers Vivi, but when the human betrays him and runs off with another human, He kills the human man and becomes the reason for the death of his human lover. He decides to take Vivi, along with Jude and Taryn(children of his lover and the human she ran of with) to the fey world and raises all 3 of them as his own. Plays a vital role is assassination of the crown family.
  • Prince Dain: The ‘to-be’ High King who gets killed by his brother. He has a group of 4 spies working for him when he was alive, including Jude.
  • Prince Dain’s Spies: Jude, The Roach, The Ghost and The Bomb.
  • Baelkin: The eldest crown prince who wants the throne for himself and kills all of his family except for Cardan.
  • Jude’s current Family: Madoc, his wife Oriana and his son Oak, Vivi, Taryn.
  • Cardan’s Friends/cronies: Locke, Nicasia, Veridian. Veridian almosts kills jude twice before she kills him. Locke makes jude believe he likes her.

These are the main characters and play vitol role in the development of the story. Jude’s character’s development from being vulnerable human to a leader among the fey group towards the end is the main focus throughout the story. These characters are really well written and they stay true to their straightforward roles. The only character which can be said to have a multilayered personality, which is discovered during the course of this story is Cardan. Everyone else is pretty much one dimensional and predictive in a way.


This book is more of a foundation for the next books to come so for the longest time not much happens in this book. Having said that, the story is still highly captivating from the start and keeps you engaged throughout. You wont feel bored or zoned out anywhere.

The strong female lead and her ‘adventures’ are something you will look forward too. And while there is very less of any romantic moments, the ones there present are cute and justified.

The only problem i had with this book is the title. ( This problem has nothing to do with the book itself, it is just my opinion, nothing else). Before reading the book i loved it, but after, I felt that the title should have been anything other than cruel prince since 90% of the book is about Jude. I understand the current title is not only for Cardan but also in reference to the other cruel princes in this story in general like baelkin, dain, locke etc, but still I just dont feel it does any justice to Jude.


All in all, this book was a great start for 2018. If you are planning to read this book but are not sure, I strongly suggest you at least give it a try. Its worth those few hours.

Star rating: 4.5/5!


Happy reading 😀


Wonder by R.J. Palacio (Book Review/Thoughts)


That was one brilliant book.
I don’t really know where to start with this book.
Initially I thought this book will be about August but it wasn’t just about August; a 10 year old with a tough life due to his medical condition, but this book was much more than that. This book was about everyone in his life, close or not and how this one condition effects all of them in a great way. Each individual who knows the boy has it tough and all of them have taken actions which they had to, and which felt right to them.

I loved how the author very cleverly shows the POV of each character and also justifies them in a realistic way. Take Via’s character, she was struggling just as much as august, just in different context and she loves august but she ends up doing a thing or 2 which may seem selfish but in this world who isn’t. She was just being human. And she did do the right thing at the end.

I loved this book. At one point I assumed that this will be one of those books with a sad ending or august would end up killing himself and I am so so glad that it didn’t end that way and the book indeed has a happy ending. A believable end too at that, and not one of those feel good but not realistic ends.

My favorite character other than august was actually summer. She was the most selfless character of them all and I wish there was a little bit more of her in the book but nevertheless all in all this was one of the best reads.

Star rating: 5/5!


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